Perhaps...

Today I felt that my life is running short. I wish it hit and knocked me out. I am sorry. It did not look real. I thought I couldn't go on like this, and perhaps I will plan to go back forever. Close to my family where I should be. I read my friend's blog, she lost her dad and I cried reading that. I will be back home.

I was thinking,
When I have done my best, I will commit suicide.
That is how it should end.
A great thing to last.
My happy ending.

I miss myold-self. I have changed alot. I have let you down.
I am a MISERABLE MESS.

Cloudy days.