Pain

It's like one of the worst day in my life. It has been like a month that my aircon doesn't work properly, I thought it needs to be serviced. I volunteered to pay the whole amount of the service charge because The Landlord didn't intend to do it for me. He blames it on me because of my bad luck. That's how I interprete this. My bad luck or the worst ever since I stay in Lavender. Today the Mitsubishi people came down to check on the aircon, guess.. It's almost a total damage, not to aircon but my bank account.

When I woke up this morning, I withdrew money thinking that the charge wouldn't exceed $200 or $300. To my dismay, Mitsubishi people said that they need to do whole alot of things in and out, also change and replace with new stuffs which cost a LOT.

Quotation:
- Heat Exchanger: $156 + Labour: $50
- 1 Lev Value: $55 x 4 Value: $220
- Outdoor Repair Labour: $300
- Transport: $15
- TOTAL: $741

p.s: Mitsubishi people said it was real expensive and i could only pay the quotation first for today, and they would give me a week to consider whether or not I want them to work on it.

I have a bad day. I don't like it here. Why am I acting like a loser? Why am i Fucking ugly stupid? I feel bad, even towards my family who will foot this charge. I have to lie to them. And fork out some money I had been keeping for 4 years $71(from my first Landlord + Ah ma's money). Still it is Not enough. I hate myself.

Hate myself for acting cool. - should have just act dumb
Hate myself for being arrogant - should have known i look more stupid
Hate myself for being nonchalant - should have just died long ago