Kiss The Rain

I just had a minor operation. The pain is still here. I have difficulty in swallowing liquids too, not just food. I am eating porridge most of the time. I like the instant porridge my dad bought, it is saltish. Lols.

The first time of my life had op, and the doc had to cut and open my gum to dig out forcely the wisdom tooth which would do me harm one day if i didn't pluck it out soon. I do not dare still to open my mouth big, talk louder. I eat like an old grandma, take me half an hour to finish my food. Lols. So don't date me out first to have a big feast or something. The part between the gum and throat is hurt still. It was bleeding for hours and i do really wish this will soon be over. Bless me...

It's only left one week to go back to Singapore and i am really not ready for school. How i wish i don't have to go back to NAFA. Things definitely are different; the people, the laughter, the love, the friendship, everything. Who do i rely on this time? I wish there could be angels around me. I can't go on by myself. I need some support to hold onto the grip. Is there anybody there going to go through this with me? I am skipping the orientation days again. I never know how's the orientation like, i skipped it too the last 3 years because of not paying school fees on time. The school is a blood-sucker.

No matter what happens, as long as i pass with the lower grade too will be fine this time. I am not striving that much anymore, and i am not gonna find who i really am in this path. I wanna start making a plan after my next graduation. Seriously it's gonna be part of my dream.
1. Get a degree cert.
2. Work in singapore (if i am allowed.)
3. Change dreams to reality!
4. Will you wait for me, people at home...
5. I promise i will be good.
6. I will never smoke again. (slap me for free if you catch me puffing.)
7. I wanna turn my hardwork and sweat into something that can bring you proud.
8. And i just want you to wait for me.

Perhaps one day i am gonna go for long, i don't know. Perhaps we will never meet again, so many plans going on mine and mum's head.

::Why don't you just kiss the rain whenever you miss me::