Day #13

i always needed time on my own
i never thought i need you there when i cry

when you walk away,
i count the steps that you take.
(avril lavigne)
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i wanna make things ok.

God, i need you.
God, give me all your power.
God, i know i shouldn't be here.
God, i should listen to you.
God, believe in me i wanna make it ok.


"dun U've close kakis here pour ur sorrows 2 them...chill out...grap a buffet...sing ur lungz out in Karaoke...or beta still....get drunk & party all nite", he said.

Who kakis? I guess i am alone.
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Why can your song and words be so powerful? Beautiful. It strikes me. I wanna share things with you, but i do not know how to start or what to tell. I make it so complicated as always. Things are changing honey. I can no longer grab your soul with me. Your mind has chosen to abandon me. Or perhaps it's just my own mind game which breaks myself into pieces.

I don't understand why i can't get upset when i know he's there only when he feels lonely, make fools of me and i can't be angry. Laughing together while the jokes was on me.. me...........
Why?

Can you tell something nice to me?

I am talking rubbish on and on. I long for something old; old songs, old love, old bed, old clothes, old familiar faces, old places, the old you.

Need a lil' comfort here.