Love hurts....

Love hurts,
love scars,
love wounds
any heart.

But I'm not
so tough
or strong
enough...

to take a lot of pain,
take a lot of pain.
Love is like a flower,
holds a lot of rain.

Love hurts.
Love hurts.

But I'm young,
I know,
but even so
I know...

a thing
of love,
and I learned
from you.

I really learned a lot,
really learned a lot.
Love is like a flame,
it burns you when it's hot.

But love hurts.
But love hurts.

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A lot of thing happens.
Mom called last Thursday to persuade me to take degree. Whole family talking to me, insisting me to change my mind, my only Plan i have inside my head. WORK!!!
'Key Edition Pte Ltd', a company that i thought i could work with. I had been anticipating for the interview day. I had prepared everything the day before it. But... thing didn't go well my way.
I love the Art Director, she is kind, nice, patient, and humble. She taught me something; fundamental of color and the flow of designing magazines. How i wish i could.... urghhk.. OVER.
I was crying so badly.. so painfully - from that night I talked to my family and along my bus journey home from Pasir Ris to Bukit Merah >after the interview<. It hurts...

My dash hope....

But now that I have decided to take degree for the sake of paper, for the sake of my family - well I gotta hold on to the grip, bear another one year and suffer.
I can't find any suitable word for it. I am not exaggerating anything, even before i start - i have already feel like a loser. That i would FAIL.

I am scared of course, even a teacher came to me and put her hand on my shoulder to advise me that I should try to read more books. I am afraid i am not gonna make it. Think about the money, think about me..

How am i going to pass those days without the enjoyment and passion in design?

I don't wanna do any design, I don't wanna do something i don't like. But I don't wanna hurt somebody's heart too.
I don't wanna show my tears to Dad & Mom. I don't wanna disappoint anyone. But i don't wanna lie to myself too.

Complicated. Yeah... Let it be... Whether I will make it or not, I leave it up to .. God?

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Something happen about friendship too. Am i tired? NO....

And you asked me again, AM I TIRED to stay in between... I SAY NO....
Cause why... ?


Cause YOU worth it !!!!!!

The difficulty that i am experiencing, the hard times that we faced, the lies i have to keep, I don't like it. None of us like it. And you know what?????

I am looking for some kind of MAGIC !!! And do you believe in it??