The Lost Girl

At this moment, i am missing my parents, family, and home. Perhaps i still feel the warmth of parents' arrival here, mom everyday clearing up the mess in my room, washing my clothes, ironing my clothes which i had not done for months. Lols..
I feel a bit lost now. Finally i have graduated, no i don't know my next plan.
Degree?
or working?? or home???

I gotta think hard and make a right decision for it! *sigh* Can i have more options?
Some ppl recommended me to work first. It is absolutely a better choice, FOR... those who wanted to improve themselves in the art field, as in seeing what the market actually really doing and requires.
But...
for those who only wants a cert., go ahead!!! Who treats design for nothing more important than a paper, GOooo... ahead!!!

I am so doubt about walking to design-field. I don't wanna make it my last destination.
What is my dream? Any way to get closer to it if i don't really know what i want?

Should i get just a degree cert, bear another one year and leave this field afterward?
or should i work, a tryout for one year and head for another new direction the next year?
*sigh* all i wanna do now is to know what i want.

Things to update you ::
- I am graduated now.
- Been feeling low past few days, about friendship.
- That is why graduation day wasn't perfect and i don't like it.
- Things are changing again.
- I am lonely with no direction.
- I am one lost girl.
- I am not real designer.
- I am here today because i didn't know where to go.
- I wanna know what i want.
- I wanna look for some signs for my future.
- Where should i go now?
- Should i go home soon?
- Should i look for a job?
- Should i take degree?
- Which one first? Which is more important?
- or should I change my field-direction?
- Study music? literature? or movie production?
- Lastly..... i want you to know,
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- I cherish friendship.
- I don't want good things come to an END.

I am lost! SuperrrrRrr... lost!