Have a Lil' Faith in Me

I get jealous with someone who seems to be a wonderful person. Someone who i don't know and better than me. I guess it sounds almost like a bad loser. I don't mind to be a loser sometimes... it's alright, but i don't wanna be a bad one. I am not a real perfectionist, if you think i'm one, yes i am the lousy-perfectionist with fake action. Lols. Do i sound like no confidence at all? I lack of it. If i just can conquer my negative thoughts and tell myself i'm cool enough to be me, i know i would be better than i was. The question is...... do you have a little faith in me? or should i have that lil' faith in me first before anyone else?

Pls...
All you gotta do is
Having a lil' faith in me
Have a lil' faith in me.

I almost forgot about who were once there for me. It's been more than 2 years and half, i'm scared. How am i going to show-off what i am good at? I am thinking of remaining silent without any action. But i know, it's soon getting on my nerves. I have to do something about it, my fyp. Yet i don't wanna start anything still. Can i be nonchalance about this fyp and back to become the old jeanne in those sec schl whereby all my grades were flunk out? Do i really have to make you all proud? It's nice to see a smile from your dear ones' faces. It's great to know those smiles were from you and for you. But it's not easy. I feel so uneasy and guilty.