I wanna talk to somebody

I called home but the connection was damn bad. I couldn't hear anyone's voice. I said hi to my friend but she couldn't sense my self-helplessness. Should I ask for it, then she will know? Can't she guess with self-instinct? It is my turn for the need of someone's presence here with me.
*sigh
I have stared blankly on the piece of paper and screen, yet I still clueless on what I wanted. It is getting stronger, the feeling that tells me that I am no good. I may need a little support and encouragement, but no one gives me at the moment. I strummed on my guitar and started to sing, "I almost give up". Hey, I am getting sick of graphic and art. I almost really want to give up, it has been clinging in my mind. I feel so helpless and if it continues this way, I guess I won't want to walk this route after I graduate.